lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
Saturday, November 04, 2006
-1:29 AM
my emotions are running extremely low at the moment.. alot of bad shit happened just now at the competition.. many wrong decisions were made and i'm feeling very guilty and extremely horrible.. i cant find a better word to summarise how i feel..
firstly i'm really sorry kent for taking u out of the lineup form.. at that time my mind was just to win and i didnt really cared about ur feelings.. i really really regretted what i've done.. i wanted to win so much that i didnt think about our frenship.. i would also be real disappointed if i was in ur shoes...
secondly i'm sorry to my team that i lost for 2 consecutive days! maybe on the first day i tried my best.. but the Singapore poly game was as bad as it could be.. i must admit i was too proud.. i didnt approach the game in the correct attitude and it really cost us the chance of a better medal..
lastly i'm sorry to the girl i smacked the ball at.. the ball just came into our court at the wrong time.. and with the super stressed environment.. i just took a wild swing at her.. i know i shouldnt have done that.. well.. i'm very sorry.. =( and all the many little things that went wrong..
i guess i need to learn how to handle my emotions well.. but thanks to some great team-mates i have.. with some comforting words.. i feel better but it just takes time to get back to myself again.. and i guess now there really shouldnt be a i in the team.. but we as a team.. i was too concerned with my reputation and all that kind of nonsense.. but now.. to hell u go reputation.. not for individual glory but for God's glory..
*the pressure to win is just too great for me to handle*
